Olympic swimmer Michael Phelps

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Michael Phelps Admits He Contemplated Suicide: 'I'm Lucky'

Quite honestly I didn't want to be alive," Phelps said.

October 26, 2018 - 3:23 pm

He is arguably the greatest swimmer to have ever taken part in the sport and now Michael Phelps is opening up about his battles with depression.

Besides the international headlines Phelps made, everytime he set a new world record or won one of his record 28 Olympic medals, he also has been arrested twice for DUI's and has been suspended multiple times by USA Swimming.

Phelps was interviewed by NBC's Today and spoke of the low point in his life in October 2014, just after his second DUI and a six-month suspension by USA Swimming was announced.

"For me, I was so down on myself, I didn't have any self-love, quite honestly I didn't want to be alive," Phelps said. "It was a really, really crazy time."

After talking about the way in which he shut out his friends from his troubles, that is when Phelps knew he had bottomed out and started to receive help for his depression.

"I didn't want to see anybody because I saw myself as letting so many people down, and myself in particular, and that's hard to carry," Phelps continues. "For me, that's what changed my life, I never asked for help in my career and that's the first time I did that. I was on my knees and crying for help and I'm lucky to be able to sit down with a therapist and chat and open up."You can watch the full interview below: 

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